Long Time No Blog

It has been a long time since I have blogged. I needed a little time to process everything, as did the IP's.
I pulled back a little from my wonderful Surrogacy group that I am in as it's hard to be genuinely interested in all the positive tests everyone seems to be getting when all you want is to be pregnant for the family you are working with.

The Ip's havent yet made a decision on if they will proceed or not. Which is ok. Its a big deal. As most people can imagine, surrogacy is not cheap. Trying again after going through so much emotionally, is hard on everyone. They also had a death in the family which obviously took a toll at a very bad time, so they are taking some much needed time to reflect on things which I am perfectly OK with.

I, myself am taking this time to channel my energy into fitness. It's a good way for me to stay busy, improve my health, and just stay as positive as possible. Its really a good outlet all around. I started doing T25 from Beachbody. Its 25 minutes a day and I love it. Even me, someone who is far from fit/athletic can do it!

I am hoping to hear from the IP's in the next couple of weeks on what they want to do. Until then, I will keep on working out and trying to learn the new job I took on. (same company, different role).

Right after our second negative BETA, we had quite the scare with my Fiance. He had a bad asthma attack and ended up in a medically induced coma. It scared the life right out of me. Of course it was one of those situations that nothing could go right. We had our Son (2) with us when we rushed to the E.R. He was half dressed in below zero degree weather (he had a coat, but he was half in PJs and half in regular clothes, with no shoes) and of course he peed through his diaper while his Papa was being intubated (sp?). My phone was on 9% and we just bought the new fingerprint scanner iPhones and I had yet to store my print on my honeys phone and all his fingers were busy with sensors and tape, etc.

So, really - this downtime now that he is out of hospital is really appreciated. I am looking forward to getting moving again on the surrogacy journey, but this down time couldn't have come at a better time.